You say you want it, but truth is: a part of you actually doesn’t.
If that’s not a problem, but a fact, and you become curious (instead of judging or shaming yourself), you are able to look at your deepest fears. And then, who knows – change may become possible!
This is an experiment and an invitation for you to practice. Have a loose piece of paper and a pen at hand.
Credit for this experiment goes to Carolyn Lovewell (formerly Elliot; Existential Kink book, highly recommended).
This experiment is brought to you by Julia Neumann.